seriously, it is difficult to be the little princess of the family (cutshort -> daughter) and housedaughter ('adapted' from housewife) at the same time.. you simply wont understand unless having gone thru' it yourself.. an example would be, family (inclusive of yourself) goes out for the whole day leaving the hse in the morning and the best time to shine dry clothes would be in the morning (since recently it has been raining in the mid-afternoon to evening). how are you gonna ensure that the clothes get their sunshine without risking the chances of getting wet ?!? haiz.. anyway, i had to make a lot of sacrifices.. like less time spent with my friends, less get-together with solomon knights and less personal leisure time..

yesterday went to see ah gong in hospital.. he was in an isolation room where visitors had to wear mask and sterilise hands.. his face was soooo round as in bloated.. no thanks to the high dosage of steroids.. and seeing all the needles and wires pin to his body makes my heart hurt.. it reminded me of my stay in the hospital during my jaw operation.. being a visitor, it is just "o.. poor thing" being the patient, it is torture.. firstly, they (the equipments) are ultra uncomfortable.. secondly, they are irritating.. thirdly, you jus wan to get out of there asap.. i cant say i'm ultra close to him but there is this silent bond that i have with him.. he came to see me when i was in hospital, he took care of me when i was alone at home after trip back home from hospital, he was concern when i visited him during post-op.. i myself am confused wondering when did all these illnesses began.. he was super healthy, could drive, could fly between s'pore and china often for someone his age.. haiz.. and just last night we recieved news that he has been transferred to ICU coz his lungs were inflammed.. i really pray that he gets better afterall his eldest & first grandson is getting married next month..

so just now i was ultra busy cleaning the house coz tml i willl be flying off while instructing small bro to set up the christmas tree.. i told him if he needed help just call me.. and he began calling for help continuously.. and so i wanted to ask him did he not hear about the boy who cried wolf but instead i said ".. the wolf who cried help.." o dear lar.. that was how busy and not-so-f(x)ing my brain was.. o wellz.. this year's x'mas tree is decorated by small bro so if you do happen to drop by or smething, dont comment that it is ugly coz i know.. (evil laughter) it seems like the standard has dropped for my decor is sooooo much better... thank you.. *big wide smilez.. ok, i am soo bhb.. o no.. i miss you js..

*muackz..

try not to miss me yar ?!? flying offfffffff.............